call me grumpy and cranky

Lately for some reasons I feel like I'm becoming cranky. Hormonal changes is a good excuse for this but I would take being idle in the office as the main culprit.

For 2 weeks now I'm a certified office bum. There are little favors from US counterparts but it's just a few small things to do, some are verifications about the job I did last month. If I work slowly I'll be assured of 3-week busy mode but of course I won't do that.

Boss tells us that February and March are lousy months primarily because of the financial meltdown and most deals will close on last week of March.

Okay, so I'm idle. And being idle gives me the privilege of hearing the call sessions of my douche bag seatmate. I want to stone her to death. Seeing her talking and walking around the office primarily insults my existence in that place. And a part of my brain asking me: Hey what are you doing here??

See that. I'm becoming cranky again.

Then I talked to Fabby.

I told him the truth as early as now, better he knows early before he comes here:

I have cranky moments.
I hate human interaction sometimes.
I don't make friends easily.
I easily get irritated and annoyed.
Especially when i lack sleep and hungry.
I have a strong character.
If i want something but is completely irrational, you don't have to concede.
Same here, if you want something that I think is not rational I will definitely disagree.

If ever you encounter this in the future, let me know.

Tell me that not everything will work my way.
It's not always all about me.
I need to be considerate of the situation im in.
If i dont pacify, repeat it and say it to my face.
If it doesn't work, have the liberty to yell at me.
Until i stop.
And realize that it's not all about me.
That you are also there in that situation and we both have the same complaints.

"Will you listen?", that's all he asked. Fabby is very patient and calm.

"Yes. When i shut up, that means I heard you and processing what you said. I will listen.... But please be patient with me."

"Okay, not a problem with me."

But don't worry, Ionly become cranky when I'm pushed to the limits.

Extremely bored.
Extremely sleepy.
Extremely annoyed by an exasperating voice, accent, grammar, and crappy spelling from somebody who claims she's smart.
Extremely unproductive.
Extremely stressed.
Extremely jealous.
Extremely frustrated.

And Fabby is a surefire modern-day signature tranquilizer. Lucky me!