stoic calm

"If, therefore, any be unhappy, let him remember that he is unhappy by reason of himself alone." (iii.24.2) - EPICTETUS

Lately I've been consumed by work. I have no complaints, i'm stoic. My inspiration is Epictetus.

But in as much as tell myself that I have to be indifferent with emotions and focus purely on work, which is the most rational thing to do, there is a small nerve, so minute and needs to be magnified by a high-powered lens, that keeps on wailing and protesting and telling me to relive my passion, particularly in writing.

Apparently this little nerve talked to my bro to conspire with him and convince me to write again.

I know the plot. Jay talked to me one morning to break the news that his wife is conceiving their first after 4 years! I felt elated, I forgot I'm a stoic.

i lost my guard off and then he asked me why am I not writing anymore. If I were in my stoic state, I could have answered, "yeah, busy. It's a rat-race here. Don't have time for this cheesy stuff. Why?"

But his overture about them having a baby soon and me becoming the godmother of their first born is like a hammer to crack me off my shell.

being a stoic, I make sure that everything is a cycle. The Hydrologic Cycle (popularly known as Water Cycle) will feel threatened by its popularity.

Mich Lifestyle Cycle:

wake up -> office -> work, work, work -> go home -> eat something nutritious -> watch news -> sleep -> wake up -> and so on.

if I will break the cycle, my cells will get disturbed, so much so that I might have cancer.

Nothing to blog about my lifestyle. The only break I can get is when I go home and visit my brothers, and see Tricia and Tonette.

Amidst the busy life I have, I already gave birth to this yearning of having kids soon. This is very embarrasing to admit. But with Fabrice in the picture, having beautiful kids is not far from impossible. *wink*

The truth I learned is that no matter how much you'd like to stay in the momentum there will be times that you need to break the monotony, not because you want but because harmony requires you to slow down.

I was wrong when I said i'm stoic. As much as i'd like to be one, I dont think I can live with that.

I know i'm passionate. Being passionate means giving your 100% in everything you do. I always give my 100%. It's just that i'm not doing everything lately.

So part of me waking up from my long slumber, I am now back to the blog world.